Taking time to be quiet... and wait.
That seems to be what I'm called to right now. I just don't feel that I have anything profitable to share.
Romans 8:28 ~ And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.
I cannot see what good this is bringing right now. I cannot feel any good coming from all this. And yet, I DO trust that God's word is true and therefor it WILL be good.
My family has been living separated for 6 months now. We put an offer on this farmhouse in mid February and were supposed to close March 25th. Then, it was in limbo while the bank (seller) dealt with title issues. We were again supposed to close April 28/29. But, the finalized HUD wasn't in yet. After a ton of phone conversations on Friday, we expected to be able to close as soon as the finalized HUD came back in.
Now, I keep being told "I thought we were planning the closing for May 6th". UGH! I just want to be done with all this. And closing on Friday is going to be a serious hardship with everything else that I already have planned for that day.
All of that to say that I have serious migraines again from all this stress and my heart is overwhelmed with grief. I feel robbed.
And yet, it's selfish. I am so very blessed... truly. Things could be so much worse. I have a wonderful roof over my head and do not lack for anything physically (except for my husband's presence and regular access to our "stuff").
I'm far enough away from everyone... out of sight, out of mind. I'm tired of being alone.
I know that this will pass and I'm sure that the Lord will be glorified in it. But, forgive me if right now I just want to cry and not have everyone make light of how much this is weighing on me.
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