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November 18, 2006

All About ME ME ME!

1. FIRST NAME?
Tiffani

2. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Nope... I renamed myself in the 5th grade.  It was just a name I loved... and I hated my given name.

3. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
This morning.  All of the little ones are sick and Tabitha has been up all night.

4. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Most of the time... when I don't get lazy

5. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCHMEAT?
Yuck!  I don't like lunch meat.  When in a pinch, I'll take ham or turkey slices.

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
I'd like to think so... but I dunno.

7. DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL?
Yup... this is my pitiful attempt at one.

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?

Nope... had them out in grade school

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Not a chance... period.

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
Frosted Mini Wheats - Maple & Brown Sugar

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
That would imply that I WEAR shoes.  ha ha ha.  When I do... not usually.

12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
Most of the time yes.  Then, I end up with all of my family sick for two weeks and battling post-partum depression and I feel like a compete wimp.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Butter Pecan

14. SHOE SIZE?
Somewhere around an 8

5. RED OR PINK?
Red Red Red

16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
My tendency to be a hormonal/emotional mess because of PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome)

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
Right now?  Myself... next, my husband.  These last few months have been really difficult for both of us. We went from having teenage children... to having young adults and small children again.  It's awesome, but taken it's toll.

18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU?
Not particularly.

19. WHAT COLOR PANTS, SHIRT AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
I'm not... I'm still in my jammies.

20. LAST THING YOU ATE?
A spoon of peanut butter with my cup of coffee.

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?

Some silly childrens cartoons on TBN.

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Teal Blue

23. FAVORITE SMELL?
Starbucks Coffee, freshly bathed new baby, my husband.

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
hmm... I think it was either Tim or Kyra... but it could have been my mom.

25. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE YOU ARE ATTRACTED TO?
Their eyes... and their personality.

26. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON you stole THIS from?
I really do like Heather.  She's an amazingly strong woman who has had more than her fair share of heartaches recently.  I'm praying for her.

27. FAVORITE DRINK?
Starbucks Venti Vanilla Latte... Extra Hot with whipped cream (in the winter)... iced in the summer.

28. FAVORITE SPORT?
Bowling?

29. EYE COLOR?
Chameleon... officially they are hazel.  But, they are blue/green and change colors depending on mood, surroundings, health, what I'm wearing... etc.  I love my eye color!

30. HAT SIZE?
Dunno... I don't wear hats.

31. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Nope... I had lasik almost 4 years ago.

32. FAVORITE FOOD?
Seafood

33. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Happy Endings

35. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Winter... you can always put more on... you can't always take more off.

36. HUGS OR KISSES?
Both!  Depends on the mood and who it's from.

37. FAVORITE DESSERT?
Cheesecake or something with dark chocolate or pumpkin.

38. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Whatever

39. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Same as above

40. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?

Captivating:Unveiling the Mystery of a Woman's Soul; How to Find Selfless Joy in a Me-First World

41. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE Pad?
It's a laptop... no mouse pad

42. WHAT DID YOU WATCH LAST NIGHT ON TV?
Nothing.

43. FAVORITE SOUNDS?
Silence; my children's laughter; my husband telling me he loves me.

44. ROLLING STONE OR BEATLES?
Neither... not my tastes.

45. THE FURTHEST YOU'VE BEEN FROM HOME?
Cross-country

46. WHAT'S YOUR SPECIAL TALENT?
I have NO idea.  I sing a little.

47. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
San Diego, California

48. WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
I swiped it from Heather.  ;-)

November 07, 2006

One day at a time

Post Partum Depression... it sucks!  I'm learning to once again take each day as it comes and sometimes each hour.  I wish I didn't feel so stinkin emotional and off-the-handle.  PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome) already did this to me.  I was so relieved when we finally found a treatment that works for me.  I feel totally lost again.  I feel... raw.

Lord, I need Your joy.  I am tired of being an emotional roller coaster.  I want to sing with joy and rejoice over the blessings that You have given me.  I want to be real and not be afraid of what that means.  I want to know that I'm not just "putting on a face" for others so that they don't see the real me.  Please take this weight off of my shoulders and let me breath again.

Psalm 34:19 ~ Many are the afflictions of the righteous, But the LORD delivers him out of them all.

I hear Tabitha calling and it's time to get back to my knitting.  It's actually quite relaxing now that I've got a rhythm going.

November 04, 2006

Back to finding JOY!

Okay... I'm feeling better now.  I've had a decent night sleep and a shower (you never realize how much difference that can make).  There's a lot going on in life and I'm not sure where to begin.  So, I think I'll take the next couple of entries to introduce you to me... and the rest of my royal family.

In the meantime, I'm off to find myself a fresh cup of coffee and get some sewing done.  I've got two custom orders on my cutting table that I need to get finished before I can even start on the next three that are in line.  Mom is already in the sewing room now getting started.

Godspeed...

November 02, 2006

sigh

Sometimes there just aren't words to express how you feel... that's sorta where I am now.  I'm just bummed and not quite sure why. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.  I need to shake this funk and get back to enjoying my family and home.  But for right now I'm just going to be honest and say that I'm depressed.  THERE!  I said it!

I can honestly say that it's not any ONE thing that is bring this about... it's a culmination of everything.  Who am I?  I feel like a shell of what I once thought I wanted to be... and yet nothing near who I want to be now.  Something is missing...

... perhaps I should take some time to go find it...